Saturday, July 30, 2011

good news and bad news. why are they both awkward to respond to?

Admitting to living in the present and realizing that there is a future out there, is terrifying and inevitable.
When you're not ready to move forward and everyone else is, what do you do? Probably run and hide. But a little friend who understands, tells you everything is going to be okay and that your future is bright and nothing will stop you.
I am having a hard time accepting things right now and I fear that I want to run away and never return.
I want to never be found. But alas, I have a life, a love and a future I must pursue. So I guess I'll get to it.


Friday, July 22, 2011


Bad day, bad week, bad month, bad year. There are still highlights that really make your days beautiful.
Life isn't as bad as everyone says it is especially if you're surrounded by great friends and family.
My friend Nadia brought me flowers and a card today. My friend Kelso brought me a coloring book/crayons and magazines the other day and Cody(love) brought my a flower on Monday. Though things seems dark at times, these people keep me going. They believe in me. So here goes nothing.
Thank you all for your support and love, even when it's not needed and especially when it is. You're all wonderful people and I adore you. I hope you know I support you as much as you support me.
I love you all.


Wednesday, July 20, 2011

see you in the end.



Tuesday, July 19, 2011


It's time to make this summer real. I'm done sitting inside.

1. Sidewalk chalk drawings!

2. swimming, I want to jump off a cliff into a pool of water (even though I don't know how to swim)

3. build a tree house and live in it

4. even though I don't know how to skate, I'd like to be this kid. Running around without my shoes on going towards something so great!
5. Ride my bike everywhere
6. dance in the rain
7. run around screaming and chasing something (probably my friends)
8. I want to see the beach and sink my feet into the sand
9. get a tattoo (that's really my number one)
10. ride in a car with the windows down
11. breathe warm air
12. be a kid
I need summer. I think I'll stop working now. (ha)
Does anyone want to join me?


Saturday, July 16, 2011

The end of my childhood.

The end.

Premiere in London.

Premiere in New York City.

(she is extraordinary)

A thank you/goodbye to J.K. Rowling.

My mind was blown.
The movie was amazing. No doubt about it. It was a great end to such a wonderful series. It was poetic. It was an immaculate art piece. It was a dream. It was a friendship that could never die.  It was a complex puzzle, and every piece fit perfectly into place. 
It was an end to something so beautiful, something so tragic and heart warming.
The end of an era.


Monday, July 11, 2011


to spin and spin and spin in a field full of flowers.

to see Harry Potter 7 right MEOW! (but don't want it to ever end)

A loft apartment with loads of light and a big fluffy bed

This because it's just sweet and quite clever.

to read books, draw pictures and paint!


Friday, July 8, 2011


It's a lonely road out there and figuring out how to overcome such things by the simplest things:
riding your bike,
laying in a plush, white fluffy bed,
painting a picture that you never dreamed of,
having a shower beer,
dressing up for no reason.
But when you do have someone, they really do know what to say.
They want to join you in your bike ride,
lay in bed and watch Harry Potter movie after Harry Potter movie with you,
draw while you paint that picture,
and draw on a tie on their chest because that's the best they can do to be fancy/clever.
It's nice having that person, especially when they know you've been feeling terrible. He brings you a long cane of ginger with the most beautiful flower, or bringing coconut water when they know you'll be feeling worse the next morning, or bringing a jacket because it's raining and you forgot your jacket and they just knew. That's love I'd say.
Having them is wonderful.

Saturday, July 2, 2011

dream on.

they told me i didn't dream right,
 that I should only see black or white,
 it isn't about seeing at all i told them,
 it is just memories mixing they told me,
you aren't really there, it doesn't really mean anything,
 don't you understand? it isn't really happening,
 It is real I told them,

and that night I dreamed in color.